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Change…

Over the last few years there has been a LOT of change in my life. I’ve moved across the country, married the love of my life, walked with my love through a cancer battle, changed jobs/ careers….. and much more.

Lately I’ve been feeling exhausted. Anxiety and depression have been trying to have their way with me. I’ve been fighting the urge to just settle into a dead end job and stop trying so hard. I was having a really low moment today and so I took a cleansing salt bath and reflected on why I chose this path in the 1st place. It took a few minutes but I found my why again and took the time to look at how far I’ve come on this journey. I looked at the lesson in every experience and concluded that the journey so far has been worth it.

I am the man that I am today because I decided a long time ago not to live a scared lie anymore. Sure, I lost people and community that I’d spent years building. I’ve had a good bit of money and I’ve been broke to the point of homelessness and hunger. I’ve cried myself to sleep many nights and there was a time when the only comfort I could find was in a bottle because I had bought into a theology which said that God rejected me for living honestly. This pain is not pain that I would wish on anyone. I cannot pretend that it has not hurt because it has BUT I get to choose what I do with the pain. I get to choose to push past the pain so that others won’t have to endure what I have. I choose to use the pain as fuel for my purpose.

I choose life.

I choose love.

I choose me.

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Remembering

I haven’t taken time to sketch since 6th grade .

I decided to change that.

I get to have an artistic outlet.

I’m sure it will evolve as time goes on and I spend time actively learning different techniques.

I’ll be thanking my therapist for advising me to just invest in ME.

I love to create.

It feels like home.

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Happy New Year!

May 2020 be a year where we find the DISCIPLINE & COURAGE to create the life we desire!

#happynewyear #2020 # manifestation #discipline #motivation

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Your Path

Many of us were given a path. We didn’t question it. We trusted the giver of said path and followed it.

As life goes on, your initial path may line up with the person you become and it might not. Both are valid.

If the path you were given does not reflect your soul’s true path, it’s okay to explore a different path.

This is your life. Your journey.

Own it and enjoy.

#awakening #spirituality #questioneverything #philosopher #thinker #live

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You. Are. Enough.

Greetings,

I say to you, on this sunny day, that you are enough.

Your experience is valid.

You’re not obligated to consent to being perpetually disrespected.

This world does not own you.

It does not get to stomp out your light or silence your voice without consequence.

You are worthy of love.

You are worthy of respect.

You are worthy of honor.

So

I honor you.

I honor the deposit of the inexplicable that lies within.

I honor the god in you.

You don’t have to earn this honor.

It’s your birthright.

It belongs to you.

You.

Are.

Enough.

#lgbt #empowerment #honor #god #goddess

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Vision

Hey Family!

As part of my commitment to ministry & walking in purpose, I’ll be hosting a Virtual Visioning Party on 12-26-2019 at 5 PM CDT. It will be a live feed on the Instagram handle @reimagining_revival. I invite you to join me!

#vision #visionboard #2020 #ministry #purpose #destiny #reimaginingrevival

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Freedom

Having low self-esteem is something that I’ve wrestled with for a lot of my life. It started in my childhood when I’d be given little reminders that any full expressions of who I am weren’t good enough. This messaging, given to me be well-meaning people, was detrimental because I internalized it. I learned to believe that the best way to flow through life was to fit it. I tried over and over with no success. This was difficult for me until I learned a valuable lesson.

Who I am is enough.

This was a positive lesson but a painful one. It contradicted many things I believed to be true since childhood. It was difficult to digest but I’m so very glad I’ve learned it. I’ve learned to live and love out loud without apology. I’ve learned that God knew who I was when my creation was on the table.

I’m ending 2019 with a full heart and a clear head. Gone are the days when I shrink for the comfort of others. Gone are the days when I carry the baggage of other peoples opinions. Gone are the days where I apologize for being me.

I’m ending 2019 free. I want to be clear though. The old cliche is true. Freedom ain’t free. You gotta fight for it. You gotta be willing to let people walk out of your life for it.

As we end 2019, I choose me. My gift to myself this Christmas is the experience of being FREE! (Above is a photo collage of my personal transformation as I made the choice to shave my head. Spiritually it symbolizes 3 things. (1) A fresh start. (2) The shedding of anything that is not aligned with my soul’s path. (3) Rebirth.)

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Love Thyself!

Greetings family!

It’s that time of year again. Many of you may find yourselves in situations where you are not able to be your true self. You may have relatives who reject you because of who you are or who you love.

This can be tough. It can have negative impacts on your mental health.

Know that you are not the problem. You have the right to stay away from gatherings that are going to trigger you.

Love yourself enough to do what’s best for YOU this holiday season.

Always,

Bash

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Exploration

For quite some time, I lost my drive to explore new things. I became uptight and stern. Laughter rarely escaped my lips. I was a 20- something old man. It was exhausting.

At 30, I’ve decided to change that. I’m giving myself to explore now that I’ve experienced a rebirth into my authenticity. This exploration is exciting. I’m being exposed to many new things. I’m tasting life for the 1st time in a long time & it’s wonderful.

I’m learning that it’s okay to walk away from things that no longer speak to my spirit. I’m learning that I don’t have to have everything figured out. That’s unnerving and exciting.

Yesterday I stumbled upon coding. I was rushed back to my time at computer camp in my youth. I enjoyed computer camp but didn’t want to just be known for being smart so I didn’t pursue it. In the last 20+ hours I’ve discovered that learning coding language is something I desire. I’ve also decided not to talk myself out of it.

Here goes. In the past, I’ve been guilty of not letting myself do things that make me feel joy and excitement. That ends now.

#ftm #transman #healing #exploration #tech #coding #lgbtintech #STEM