For quite some time, I lost my drive to explore new things. I became uptight and stern. Laughter rarely escaped my lips. I was a 20- something old man. It was exhausting.

At 30, I’ve decided to change that. I’m giving myself to explore now that I’ve experienced a rebirth into my authenticity. This exploration is exciting. I’m being exposed to many new things. I’m tasting life for the 1st time in a long time & it’s wonderful.

I’m learning that it’s okay to walk away from things that no longer speak to my spirit. I’m learning that I don’t have to have everything figured out. That’s unnerving and exciting.

Yesterday I stumbled upon coding. I was rushed back to my time at computer camp in my youth. I enjoyed computer camp but didn’t want to just be known for being smart so I didn’t pursue it. In the last 20+ hours I’ve discovered that learning coding language is something I desire. I’ve also decided not to talk myself out of it.

Here goes. In the past, I’ve been guilty of not letting myself do things that make me feel joy and excitement. That ends now.

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