Divesting

For a while, I have been exploring the idea of divesting from consumerism and capitalism as much as possible.

I recently realized that I am nowhere near where I thought I would be in my journey of divesting at this point in my life.

I intend to spend the month of December exploring this and, hopefully, finding a way to get back on track.

I crave a simple, stress-free lifestyle where I have all of my needs, some of my desires, & none of the pressure that comes from working a 9-5.

Don’t misunderstand. I don’t mind working. In fact, I enjoy working. I just don’t enjoy working in settings where strict quotas and corporate profit are at the center of what I do.

The reality is, I love farming, teaching, and giving back to the community. Call me ambitious, but I intend to be doing what I love full time by the end of 2023.

I’m not sure how it’s going to happen but I’ve decided to make it happens. This post is my first step. I’m making a commitment to myself and to you, the reader, to make it happen.

Wish me luck! 😎

Thanks for stopping by.

-Bash

Self Love

Different vibes…. Still me

To love yourself…. you have to accept yourself.

This is a lesson I thought I mastered many years ago but, lately I’ve realized that this is a life long journey.

As we grow, things in our lives change. Some of these changes are for the better…. Some not so much.

The idea is to accept yourself as you are and love that version of yourself.

Once the love is there, you can begin making adjustments.

I think a lot of the time, we are so busy trying to become the “best version” of ourselves that we forget to be kind to ourselves.

If you’re always chasing some “other” version of yourself and you never take the time to accept and love who you are in this moment….. How will you know if the version of yourself you are pursuing is even compatible with who you came here to be?

The pictures at the top of this post show how this lesson is being lived out in my life.

For years, I was chasing the “serious professional” image. In pursuit of that, I was neglecting those parts of me that love being outdoors, working with my hands, & interacting with farm animals.

I shoved that part of me to the side for over a decade. Why? I was worried about how people would perceive me. I didn’t want people to think I was country or without ambition.

The reality is, I was robbing myself of something I love…… Something that, thanks to my parents, is something I am good at and have the instincts for.

The lesson: Farmer Bash, Bash the Intellectual, and Smooth/Laid Back Bash are all VALID manifestations of different aspects of ME.

In heavily focusing on what I thought was expected of me & worrying about the opinions of others. I spent many years living in misery and searching for what was in plain sight.

I invite you to learn from my mistakes.

Start spending some time with YOU. Even if there are things about yourself that you don’t like, make the effort to accept yourself and love yourself as you are.

From there, you can begin working toward a better version of yourself. Not from a place of wanting to please others or keep up appearances…. But from a place of love.

You deserve it. 😎

Thoughts before bed…

I’ve been in a reflective headspace lately.

I’ve lost interest in social interactions.

I just want to create and have space to think.

Over the years, I’ve ignored this yearning. Not this time though…. This time I’m listening. This time I’m stepping away.

😎

The Dream

I have a dream that I’ve not truly committed to.

For a variety of reasons, I have held back.

Over the last few days, I’ve made more progress than I did in the past few years.

I don’t know what will come of it but I do know that I want to be a light. I want to share meaningful research with the world.

This research and creative process won’t just happen.

It’s going to take work.

I hope I can generate funding. I hope the process will be worth it.

I believe I can and I believe it will.

We shall see. 🤷🏾‍♂️

Best,

Bash

Writing

Confession: I’ve been working on a book for about 10 years. I’ve scrapped manuscript after manuscript because I wasn’t quite articulating things in a way that I felt good about.

Sure, the words were hitting the pages but something was missing.

Today, as I was getting ready for work it hit me.

I was writing from a place of raw pain. I had not taken the time to heal.

To be honest, I didn’t know how to heal. I mean. How does one heal?

I had no idea so I’ve sort of wandered around in the wilderness of life for the past decade or so, facing the ugly process of healing.

And, to be clear, healing is an ugly process. It’s not all light and love and butterflies and rainbows.

Healing is messy.

So…. Now that I’m more healed now that I ever have been (Healing is an ongoing process). I am taking the time to see if a book is really what I want to put out into the world or if I want to tell my story through a different vehicle.

Time will tell. For now, I’ll stick to blogging and resume my creative writing journey while reflecting on the many things I’ve written over the years.

I don’t know what’s next but whatever it is will be something that honors my past and the lessons that have come from those experiences.

Thank you for stopping by.

Sending love and light.

-Bash

Life

This journey we call life is interesting.

There are highs and lows. Ups and downs.

There’s no way to accurately predict where this journey will take us.

All we can control is how we flow with the process.

Sometimes we rise to the occasion…. sometimes we fall flat on our faces.

None of us have arrived at perfection. We all have flaws and probably some regrets to go along with them. That’s life.

If we’re lucky, we’ll be learning and growing until we pass on to the next phase of existence.

It is with this in mind that I encourage us all to be kind to others. Extend grace to others.

That doesn’t mean you should be a doormat or allow people to violate your boundaries. It just means that we should be careful not to judge others harshly. Keeping in mind that none of us are without flaws is a good place to start.

Have a great week.

Sending good vibes.

Bash