Day 13: Healing

Healing can be painful. This weekend I’ve taken time to revisit old wounds with the intent of healing them.

There are things I wish I could undo. There are events I wish never happened. There are things that were beat into me that I now have to unlearn.

One day at a time family. One day at a time.

I love you.

~Bash

Day 9: I Quit My Job

Today I quit my job to do something important. It was terrifying. It was exhilarating. It was necessary. I still have one shift to go but I did it. I seized an unexpected opportunity and decided to say yes to an adventure.

I’m happy to be leaving the world of B2B sales behind. I won’t miss this job. I have to be honest with myself about that one. I have given it a shot and am okay with admitting that it’s just not a good fit for me. There’s no shame in that.

As a recovering codependent, I’m happy that I chose to do this. It’s the first time since I started this journey of recovery that I’m making a major shift. I aim for it to not be my last.

I’m grateful to the source of all for this opportunity to grow. My faith increases with each passing day. I’m not a mistake. My trans experience is a gift from on high. I choose alignment with purpose. I choose to bet on the god in me.

I love you.

~Bash

What it’s like to give birth as a transgender man, told through the eyes of two families in TLC’s ‘My Pregnant Husband’

The hour-long episode, which airs tomorrow at 10 pm ET, features two couples: Myles and Precious, and Ari and his wife Caitlin, a cisgender woman.

Viewers see both couples going to doctor’s appointments, shopping for baby supplies, and having difficult discussions about how they’ll raise their soon-to-be children.

https://www.insider.com/my-pregnant-husband-shows-pregnancy-birth-for-transgender-men-2020-7

Day 8: No More Excuses

Today’s thought is simple. STOP MAKING EXCUSES FOR NOT LIVING THE LIFE YOU DESIRE.

It’s a hard truth but sometimes we come up with an abundance of excuses for remaining in a rut. Having excuses gets us off the hook for any responsibility we have for changing our lives. We sell ourselves short when we do this. Let’s stop it TODAY.

I love you.

~Bash

Day 7: Investing In Myself

Back in 2016, I became a certified life coach under my dead-name. That certification has since expired so I’ve decided to spend the money necessary to get re-certified. Like getting baptized after coming out, this is a necessary step for me to move forward in my life. I finalized my enrollment in an accredited course this morning before clocking in at my day job. I feel excited.

It’s like going back to school, only this time I’m going as my full self. That’s important.

I’ve also started a travel agency. This is HUGE because my wife and I both love to travel and this will allow us to increase our bottom line. If I do this correctly, I’ll have the freedom to work from wherever I am. This will be hard work but it will also be work that I can be proud of.

It feels good to be on my way toward a career instead of just rotting away at a job. Thank you for letting me share my journey with you.

I love you.

~Bash

Day 6: Setting The Atmosphere

Yesterday I took some “me time”. I called my parents. They’re not affirming so I was dead-named and misgendered. My therapist thinks I should severe ties with them. I’m still battling that. It’s likely because of learned behavior. I’m a recovering codependent and I wonder how this will change as I work the steps.

Today, I’m purging some of my belongings and reorganizing. This journey toward minimalism is a bit tougher than I expected but it’s beautiful nonetheless. Having more open space just helps. I’m able to think more clearly and it’s easier to find everything.

I’m a few minutes, I’m going to get up, shower, and get dressed for a day of cleaning and purging. Hopefully a lot of calories will be burned. Hopefully I’ll learn a few more things about myself.

Wish me luck.

I love you.

~Bash

Days 3&4: I Am An Artist

I feel most alive when creating. It brings me inexplicable joy.

I’ve started jewelry making. I’m actually good at it. May start selling necklaces soon.

I love photography. Being behind a camera gives me a rush. Capturing nature with my camera is my favorite.

I wish I could make a living as an artist. That would make me happy. That would give me cause you leap out of bed each morning. I’d be fulfilled in a way that being in sales simply does not fulfill me.

That’s it. I want to use art to earn a living. Not sure how I’m going to make that happen. But that’s what this journey is all about.

It will happen.

For the sake of my sanity it must happen.

Day 2: Stress Will Kill You

Today I have been in bed due to a dangerously high spike in my blood glucose levels overnight. Stress was a big factor in this spike. Stress is a big factor in most of the physical illnesses I deal with.

I’m 30, and stress is diminishing my quality of life to the point where I find myself dealing with the physical consequences of it on an almost-daily basis.

I don’t want to die young. I don’t want to be yet another sacrifice to the gods of capitalism and grind culture. I want to enjoy my fucking life.

That’s all I got today family.

I love you.

~Bash

Day 1: Write The Vision

Today I commit to taking the time to write down my vision for my life.

I’ve been in a dead end career since 2014 and I’ve decided that I want to spend my professional life coaching, developing, motivating & ministering to people. This is something I’ve known for a while but I have not been intentional about making it happen.

I realize that if I am to ever have the life I want, the first step is to put it in writing and to develop a plan of action. Part of my plan is to involve you, my readers, in this journey. Feel free to comment with any feedback and, if you feel so inclined, start your own journey.

Though there are things in life we cannot control, there are many things that we can. A decision to live a life of purpose is a choice that we are able to make. I choose purpose. I’m done just existing. It’s time to LIVE.

I love you.

~Bash