As a trans man who is called to ministry, I’ve been slacking.
I’ve been afraid.
I’m not afraid anymore.
Now I’m hustling and building. Challenging systems and cistems. I’m grinding.
It’s not about me.
It’s not about the money.
It’s all about the message.
God is love.
God is in all of us.
We should be love.
My latest appointment was not what I’d hoped. I was at 315 lbs at the appointment and my numbers were not where they needed to be as far as my bloodwork was concerned.
The changes I’ve been making have not been doing the job so I’ve switched to keto. I’m doing this after a discussion with my doctor about taking a more aggressive approach to taking my health back. I would encourage everyone considering something like a drastic change in diet to consult a doctor first.
Having said that. I’m now at day 3 of keto and it has been a struggle. I love carbs and before deciding to go keto I didn’t realize how hard it is to eat under 20 carbs a day. It’s a challenge but one that is worth it for the fitness goals that I have.
I’ll be posting daily on Instagram @bashshares. I will also be posting here as I move through the journey. I could use community while tackling this because, honestly, fitness is something I’ve always desired to through myself into but was afraid.
I’m ready to kick diabetes’ ass.
*I am not a medical professional, I am merely documenting my personal journey with Diabetes Type 2*
For this coming week, I’m going to reassess my worth. Presently, even while working a job that’s paying me the most money I’ve made in my adult life I’m still making far less annually than I should for a person with my education and experience. This is something I’ve accepted for far too long.
I owe it to myself to not accept less than what I should be making. I owe it to myself to stop letting “bonus potential” convince me to take jobs making far less than I should be. I should be able to afford to live in a great neighborhood. I should be able to pay all of my household bills on my income alone. Moving forward, I’m holding myself to that standard. I’ll be dedicating the next 5 calendar days to solidifying what that should look like and my plan for getting there.
I’ve had enough. I deserve better from myself. My wife deserves better from me. I will realize my potential.
I’ve done it folks. I’ve committed to a mostly plant based diet and I’m still here to talk about it! What’s also great is, I’ve lost about 12 pounds since my last visit with my doctor. I’m nowhere near my goal weight but I’m glad to not be where I was. Here’s a summary of the journey so far:
We’re part of the way through February and I’ve been doing my best to eat well. There have been some slip-ups that I’m not proud of but, overall, I’ve managed to make a lot of good dietary decisions. For the most part, I’ve been eating a lot of vegetables and nuts. This is in keeping with the information I was given when I spoke with a dietitian at the time of my diagnosis. My energy levels have been a bit low so I think I need more calories than I’ve been consuming.
To accomplish this need for more calories, I was intentional and actually meal prepped this week. At the heart of the meal prep is red cabbage. Red cabbage is a delicious and filling way to get in a nutritious food item that pairs well with a lot of other things. I’ll be consuming a lot of green veggies and beans alongside it and hopefully, I’ll have the energy I am looking for.
I won’t stop until I’m no longer on medication to help manage the diabetes. I won’t stop until I’m ripped enough to compete in a bodybuilding competition. I owe me and it’s time to pay up!
Peace. 
Bash Shares 